What’s most important to you right now? 

Movement. Trying to keep moving as best I can, whether it’s staying busy physically or continuously through my emotions. I can sit in my shit and it’s just not helpful to do that. Definitely momentum and continuing to move through. I think talking to friends is huge; to talk to people who are my age and going through a similar time in their lives, it’s a different perspective. 

What was most important to you before you had to social distance? 

It was all career. It was all getting shit done. I wanted to get a reel done and I wanted to finish out my acting training in New York. I’d been planning to move back to LA anyway, but I had allotted myself four months of prep and that is not a thing anymore. It’s all changing now. It puts you in perspective for sure. Everything else seems to trivial besides relationships and love and staying sane. 

What’s the first thing you’ll do when this is over? 

I just want to see my friends! I just want to see a few of my closest friends and get together and have a good meal and good drinks and just laugh. That’s been getting me through so much. Being able to laugh is so necessary. Seeing friends and going out to eat at a really nice, cool spot. 

What are you doing to pass the time? 

I’m doing a little book club with my friend. We’re reading Wuthering Heights. We both realized that we had it and we couldn’t get through. We’re going to hold each other accountable and read some literature during this time. I’m definitely going outside to go on runs frequently. That’s necessary. As much as possible. Watching a drama as well as a comedy or reality show. I’m cooking all my meals, so that takes up a lot of time now too. I’m doing Masterclass. 

What makes you happy right now?

Talking to my friends. Finding any excuse or reason to laugh and keep light during this. Going out into nature makes me feel really good. Seeing mountains and all that makes me feel a little less confined. 

What would you tell yourself two months ago with the knowledge you have today? What is the biggest realization you’ve had through this time?

Don’t worry so much about the future, because it’s never going to turn out the way you expect it to anyway. It’s not worth insomnia, it’s not worth anxiety. You just don’t know. Planning is smart to a degree but also it’s not worth obsessing and ruminating over how the next couple months are going to turn out. You have no idea what’s going to happen! You just have to let go at some point and not fixate on outcomes because something like this could happen. 

I think I’m just so fucking lucky, honestly. I have everything I need over here. I have my health and I have my family and they have their health. I’m near most of my friends now–it’s nice to know that I’m close, at least, to them. I’m so happy that I got out when I did. [I’m] realizing the important of the basics, which is health and love. That’s pretty much all I think is the most necessary. 


Marlie R-Los Angeles

DAY 18